Thursday, April 28, 2011

It's Strange Really.....

I'm nearing 40 and I'm falling apart....body doesn't work right anymore.  Areas are hard to move, or crack when they finally do...I don't move as quickly as I used to.  I can't see, but hate to wear my glasses.  Headaches come quickly when you're stubborn like that.

I find myself confused at times.  Wondering why I feel like I do....19, 20, 21 year olds aren't supposed to feel that way, right?

Please, those of you a little older than I am...or possibly even younger....please tell me when I will finally accept that I'm getting old?

I still see myself (in my head, certainly not in the mirror) as a young bleached blond in love with a West Point Cadet dreaming of our wonderful life together.  Wondering what exotic place the Army will carry us after his graduation......

Somewhere along the line kids started popping up in my house....weird.....I fell in love with them too.....and I did end up in an exotic place, only it wasn't the Army that sent me there.

So.....in my confused state, this is what I know....(not much!)

I know:

I'm 20 in my head
40 in my body
hate glasses
live with headaches
in love with a handsome cadet
live in an exotic place
in love with 5 rug-rats
but still wondering where they came from
not enough time has passed to have 5 kids
I'm in denial that I'm getting older
I love my life as a missionary wife
God is Good!


Thankfully and Confused-fully yours,

8 comments:

Jill said...

I don't know either! I'm (more than) slightly older than you, but I don't think I am in my head. Sure feels like it, though!

Cathy said...

Hey, I'm not help. They tell me I'm 53 and worked for almost 35 years and have a 19 & 16 year old. No way..."they" must be crazy!

Betty said...

Turning 50 this year.....and still have NOT accepted getting old! I STILL refuse to wear glasses when I don´t have to and I STILL see myself as 20 something. Any help?

janice said...

Well personally I am MUCH too young to be this old!

How could I possibly be 61? Seems just like yesterday I was a sweet young thing. :))

nannysheart.blogspot.com said...

Nina,
You are awsome at any age. I am 63 with 21 grandchildren, 42 years as a nurse and in my self-thoughts I still look 30 until that sad invention, the mirror, tells me otherwise. My parts hurt every day and I am thankful that they are there to hurt. I have made friends with my glasses because without them I might mistake you for Michael. At some point I began to care less about what others thought about my appearance and much more about comfort. And yes, God is good and I am in love with those 5 rug rats too. I'm so excited about your coming arrival back in the states. I love you.

Personalized Sketches and Sentiments said...

haha...I know what you mean and I am way older than you! I remember one of my hubby's aunts say to me after my hubby and I were newly married, that she felt like she was in her late 20's, but then she would look in the mirror and see a woman in her late 40's....

I see our grown kids and am amazed how grown they are and the changes you can see when you compare past photos!... (but of course...us mommas and poppas don't grow older :o)

Blessings & Aloha!
stop by if you get a chance :o)

Anonymous said...

Nina,
It seems to me that you just need a really good girls night. Dinner and conversation with other women who are feeling way too young to be this old (Yours truly here LOL) And that can come long about June!!!! Are you soooo pumped??? By the way, you are in better shape and looking better then you did as a 20 year old, so own that! LOL
Love you girl,
Danielle

Dani Joy said...

I am feeling it too! What´s up with that! YOu are not much older than me girl and we are not yet that close to 40! NOOOOO!

Very funny about loving the rug rats but not sure where they came from! that´s hysterical! I feel that way now too cause they are so different and getting more different every day.

Sure do miss you. So glad you get to go to the States for a bit. Gonna miss you more though. ;(. Lord willing, I can get back into blogging again.

big hugs your neighbor,
Dani Joy